Waiting for the tides to change - 2

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H finally left after dropping off S. while he was here he was txting away. ugh! i shouldn't care but obviously i do!! i didn't ask or say anything. then he emailed himself a bunch of photos of the kids. i think that's the nice thing about him not being here.. i really don't know what he's up to so i don't think about it as much as if he were here.

when H was saying goodbye to D, she got very upset. "daddy you don't go! no daddy! you stay here with me!". then she came into the kitchen and said "i'm sad. daddy's not staying here!". i could tell H was upset. he actually looked like he was going to cry. if anyone has the ability to get through to him.. it will be D.

i have been friendlier lately. but still distant. protecting myself. after he left we exchanged a couple of txts and he told me he was going to go meet my BIL and his wife. guess he's not out partying. ok.. NO THINKING!!!!

hope everyone has a good weekend. i fully intend to! don't need wild parties.. just the company of some good gfs and my mischievous little pumpkins!