Well, it's our 9th anniversary today smile I had gotten to the point where I didn't think I'd be celebrating this day ever again.

I'm no longer the LBS. We had a tough conversation the other night that led to J telling me that the ball is in my court. He said he's made his decision, that he's in this 100%, and he will be here whether I feel the same way or not. I'm in this 100%. For a while I wasn't sure, but I've made up my mind. Our interactions have been really great. We don't treat each other the way we used to. I only see it getting better from here.

J told me he read an article on detachment in a magazine a couple of weeks ago and it's helped him. I think it's amazing that he came across that on his own. Detachment is always talked about here on this forum, and practicing it has helped me. J really has needed to detach. He told me he doesn't obsesss about what I'm doing or feel the need to constantly talk to me anymore. Detaching is letting go in a healthy way. We focus on our individual lives, and when we're together, the time spent is just that much better.

He's staying over tonight. We're going to have Chinese food and wine. I may go crazy and bake some cookies wink

If I can give any advice here, it would definitely be to focus on detaching and acting as if! J told me once he started seeing me turn into this unstoppable, amazing force, he saw a future with us together and he couldn't let it go, no matter how hard he tried to.

He sent me these texts yesterday:

"You know Jen, that's exactly how I feel. I can't wait to live my life with you by my side doing all the things we've always wanted. Your're doing so great and I'm on my way too. I love you kid, don't forget it."

"I'm soo proud of you Jenna, you're making me want to live up to the person you're becoming."

M & H 25
T 9
D 7
S 4
Bomb 11/11 Confused about feelings for me.
Bomb 12/11 ILYBNILWY, moved out
2-1-12 We're exclusive & dating each other.
3-4-12 H moved back in.
3-31-12 I deserve better. I'm done