feeling like giving up.....former DBing against OW

[imthemom]

I have been a mess all day...I finally just went home from work, it was haveing a hard time holding it together. I dont want my son to have to go through this...I dont want him to know that his D had an affair and lose all respect for him, I dont want him to be without a father!!!
He use to be so proud of the fact that he was one of the few kids in his class who still lived with both his parents. He has not been the same kid since this all started and it breaks my heart....How can his D do this to him and just abandon him the way he has????? and not see what it is doing to him???
Im not feeling strong today...today i want to call him and say WHAT ARE YOU DOING???!!!! Dont you give a crap who you hurt and the damage you are doing to people who loved and cared about you for 19 dam years!!!! This is going to effect the rest of his life and his D is acting like its not a big deal...just another day in the life.. and im home crying and wondering how I can protect my S from the pain that I know he is going to have when he puts it all together, because its the same pain I had. Why didnt he love me? Why is she more important? whats wrong with me that he would leave me for her????? I know thats not the whole story..but its where you go when you hear it, and he will feel the same way since his dad hss been completely absent. and it will be obviouse since it was literaly from one day to the next that his dad just stopped comeing around. GAWD, i just want to slap him in the back of the head and scream!!!!!!