Since the first time you ever posted to me the same thing always happens. I look at my thoughts and find where they are coming from. This has taken me longer. I will say I feel a bit of relief now. Thank you!
Making a decision from anger/hurt doesn’t usually lead to the best choices in life.
Listening to those emotions and not facing them head on makes them worse down the road. I have accepted that the marriage is done and I let this stuff build up in a matter of three days. I don’t want to be the one that runs from my emotions.
What she chooses I have no control over and I know I only control myself. I don’t have to make a choice yet. I know fall down get back up! Slow down and make calm choices in life. Actually now that I look at myself I feel kind of stupid for letting my emotions get out of whack!
Pride is just another emotion. My pride is just that being proud of who I am and what I have accomplished I don’t see it as over inflated or bad. I also want others to share in my happiness. Maybe I am looking at this all wrong but isn’t it important to share something with others that makes you proud? I know pride can be a double edge sword and I don’t want to use pride to hurt someone else.
Over the last five days I let my emotions take hold of my thoughts. If this was some kind of test I failed. All I can do from this point is keep on working on myself and obviously my changes were not as solid as I had thought. I will say that after about six hours of thinking about all of this I feel much better. Thanks everyone. I know time is my friend.
Me 44 W 38 M 18 D 18 D 13 Bomb 10/21/2010 Divorced 7/19/2011 Just getting to the 7th inning!
