Waiting for the tides to change - 2

[BFloat]

H txted last night thanking me for going into the bank to sign the paperwork. i wasn't quite sure what to say so i txted back.. thanks for sorting it all out. wanted to acknowledge that he took charge of the situation since i have always taken care of it all in the past.

we txted back and forth a bit about my plans for spring break w/ the kids. told him i have been saving money to go. he told me he has been saving also because he wanted to contribute as well.

this morning, H came to pick up S for his fieldtrip. D cried out "daddy!!", hopped off the couch and ran towards him. when he hugged her, he looked both happy and sad. i guess all these conflicting emotions are good for him.

later on, he asked how my injury was. i was vague but said i was ok. he seemed a little upset that i didn't go into detail and just kept the conversation short.

i'm sort of at a point where i think.. i love you but.. what do you expect from me? i am getting on with my life out of necessity for myself and for the kids. i don't ask him if he wants to do things w/ us because i'd rather not deal w/ the possible disappointment. is that wrong?? i don't know.

i'm happy it's the weekend! happy we have friends coming over!!