When it's a one-way street...part 2

[BeingMe]

I doubt my H will care ... he already knows. I think it lasted this long because he travels a lot, so is rarely here. Two of the years, I was battling cancer (my kids at home were awesome), so that leaves 5 years. I've been clear for 2 years, and I have learned a lot from having cancer. One finds a different perspective when faced with one's possible demise.

I've been attending university, so that keeps me busy, plus I spent a lot of time overseas last year, helping my D31 with the birth of her third child. It was fantastic. I got to see another part of the world. I sure do have an optimistic outlook on my future. I still try and take each day as it comes. I dance for exercise, with a Wii Dance Tape, and it lifts my spirits no end (I probably suck, but I don't look in the mirror).

I don't think you and I are that different ... I made the same decision 7 years ago that you are making now. Just be sure you're not making that choice out of fear. I think I did, a little. I didn't want to be alone, and now I spend most of my time alone. I prefer it to not having an intimate, joyful M. There is always hope that that could happen, one day. It is fortunate that I am an introvert given the circumstances.