So here is a question. Is it a good thing we will be apart, meaning will it give her more of a chance to miss me, experience the consequences of her decision both good and bad?
YES and YES. You already know that you can't control or manipulate her 'feelings' for you right now. You are validating her by giving her what she 'thinks' she wants right now.
It turns into a bad thing when you stop bettering yourself; sit and watch her; and wait. You need to really focus on doing things for you so if she never changes her mind, you are going to be ok. She needs to see that strength from you. It [censored] at first, but it will get easier.
