Sure, if Accuray wants to chime in. Also, that's a great point. What are some things (your H or not) that you would absolutely want in your life, such as whipped cream in bed or at least one romantic night/weekend out every three months and yes, trust! What would be one thing that could help build back trust with your H?
And I hope you don't mind I let go a little for now. I think it's pretty well laid out and I'm going to be busy with my kids this weekend and there are many vets who might help you with the baby steps and changing yourself to change the M and that core DB stuff...
I think one of the most difficult question that comes up once someone is full into DB is... what if I do this and it doesn't work? What if we end up D anyhow, a year from now or five years from now?
I guess the real answer is, how much is your current M worth putting into? Are you prepared to give it one more year? Or do you just pack it in and try to start from scratch, hoping to find someone else that you might get to know, appreciate, trust, care for... love... again?