{quote] I have formed some sort of crust that isn’t going to allow me to let anyone in my life right now. I don’t know how to explain it any better, maybe I have just become hardened. Does that happen to all of us? [/quote}
The crust (nice description by the way )is probably a defense mechanism and that's ok. It doesn't have to be a permanent thing.
There was quite awhile that I felt the same way. I can't say I feel "crusty" now, I'm not inclined to look for any kind of romantic relationship. When I am, I will.
Perhaps in my case age is a factor. There was a time I was really scared I would always be alone. Now, I think it's ok either way. There are lots of things to do and people to meet, so it's all good.
It all takes time. I used to get so tired of thinking that (and hearing it), but it has turned out to be my friend, not my enemy.
)is probably a defense mechanism and that's ok. It doesn't have to be a permanent thing.