Young and the restless? No it's Older and Patient

[Seminolewind]

When you feel like you’re drowning in life, don’t worry, your lifeguard walks on water!

Grace, I need to refocus, I may have stumbled but I will find peace in my heart again! I need to be more patient for me and me alone. An impatient person makes bad choices in life. I don’t want to be that guy. I want to be the man that has great qualities that radiate to other people. That guy lives inside me and he makes me proud.

Antonia, Thank you for jumping in and I know exactly where you are coming from.

I have felt some attachment to my ex for the last few days and I am not sure why. What happened this weekend has been a huge set back in my progress. Today when I look at my ex she is still the 18 year old girl that isn’t thinking clearly for herself. What she is choosing to do still hurts me and I know that I can’t help her. I really feel sorry for her because she is spinning out of control. I blame myself for letting my feelings for her rise up again because I knew better. My heart is still broken and I will be the first to admit that. All I can do is continue on my journey and not make any major decisions until my head is clear again. Good choices make life so much more enjoyable.

I have had feelings that a new relationship would make me feel like I have completely moved on. I know I don’t need someone to make me happy and when I get to the point I am ready I will let that happen. I have formed some sort of crust that isn’t going to allow me to let anyone in my life right now. I don’t know how to explain it any better, maybe I have just become hardened. Does that happen to all of us?

I thought about this touch and go crap. I played right into her game and it still hurts. I refuse to stay stuck in life. I deserve better and I am the only one that can make that happen. I just had a major back slide and I should have protected myself from letting it happen. I have learned enough to know that this was something I should have avoided. My advice to any one reading this would be do NOT let them play you for a fool. We all deserve to be treated with nothing but respect.