Waiting for the tides to change - 2

[BFloat]

FIL messaged me yesterday. i had asked my MIL if i could use some of her time share pts to book something for spring break. i guess she had emailed my FIL to call me w/ the access info. anyway, he wanted to come see the kids and i so he will be coming over tomorrow evening. should be interesting. i haven't seen him since Christmas apparently he is not too happy about situation between H and i. i'm not sure if he'll actually say anything though. we'll see.

H also messaged today asking how we were and wondering if i had time to go into bank to sign some paperwork in order to renew the mortgage. i told H i actually had to go to walk in clinic today but could figure out something for tomorrow. of course H was concerned and asked if everything was ok. i told him kids were fine. he eventually said he knew he wasn't entitled to any info but wanted to know if i was ok. told him about my injury at work.

tonight, H txted again asking how my clinic visit went. said he was glad i was ok. wondered if i needed any help. said he missed the kids. i really just don't know how to answer these days.

i'm sad today. thinking about the past year. thinking about my kids. something good has to happen soon doesn't it?