I understand about the feelings, she's the mother of your children! She also didn't have an affair, if I recall. Hey, there's nothing wrong with having warm feelings for that person and not hating them. Just don't fool yourself by saying "I was just curious" uh uh! I don't buy it...and you don't have to care whether I do or not :)So do the Match thing and maybe you'll meet someone nice...just be aware of your feelings re the ex and don't get curious anymore, OK. Let not checking be a another step towards detachment.