feeling like giving up.....former DBing against OW

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I need some suggestions or perspectives on this from some of my girls (and sure, you guys can chime in) about a situations that has finally come up...

I knew this was going to happen, no matter how carefull I was and how hard I tried, My S14 overheard me on the phone talking (well I should say eavesdropped..because I was in my bathroom in the back of the house with my bedroom door and bathroom door shut!!) Im not sure how much he heard but we were sitting down to dinner last night and he told me he "overheard me on the phone" and then asked if dad had a girlfriend...I asked what he heard and he just said that he heard me say something about dad "putting her before his son"....crap...i cant tell you how horrible I have felt since then...I could just kick myself!!!!

I told him that was a conversation that he needed to have with his D...S14 said "do you really think he would be man enough to tell me the truth? just tell me"...I avoided the whole thing and I just dont know how to handle this now....I couldnt tell him...as much as I have waited for this day..and I told my H he better hope that S14 never asks me the right questions...I just couldnt do it. Im not sure if Im being selfish cus Im just not ready for him to know...It makes it real, and Im afraid it will change everything...

I havent let H know that his son knows something...I really just want to stay out of it and let H deal with it...
funny part is, when I wouldnt answer any of S14s questions..he said "fine, ill just show up over there one day with out notice and walk in and say hey dad, whos this???" omg...he is definatley my son...:)