My dad dealt with life for years with alcohol and xanax. He'd lost his career over this, and spent years trying to recover financially. We hovered just above poverty for a larger portion of my teenage years and early 20s than I'd rather recall. He sobered up for years, but his drinking eventually returned, and his habits mirror mine. Doesn't drink to "get through the day", but always ends his day like that.
Would he WANT me to do it? Probably not when put in those terms.
I'm 4 chapters into the Big Book of AA. Good of them to put it online.
I'm not gonna get all fluffy bunny and puppy dogs here, and pat you on the back. Because having a plan an acting on a plan are two different things.
You had a plan yesterday and ....well....
Actions right now, not more meaningless words.
What is your list of goals ?
1-Stop being a victim of this ( this is a free one )