Is it easier to be the victim, than to face that resistance ?
It certainly gets the "sympathy vote" quicker.
Originally Posted By: tenbusrider
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Which deserves a good answer ????
I guess I should also ask if you WANT help...
My answer would be that I occasionally need a good swift kick in the butt. I don't have any discipline, as should be evidenced by what I said above. And by my continuing dependence on alcohol.
I'm not your Mama, or your Kindercare instructor. I will however be part of your support system. To hold you accountable for your choices.
I'm gonna challenge you, and ask you the hard questions. You are gonna get angry with me. Although if you really take a good look at it, your anger will be with yourself.
If nothing else, use that anger to prove me wrong....I welcome that.
Originally Posted By: tenbusrider
I do want that help. I want the hand UP, not the hand OUT. I'm tired of needing others to motivate me.
It's funny that you mention anger - your perceptiveness truly amazes me, Mach. I'm really REALLY mad at myself right now. I'm also trying to hold on to that anger, because I deserve it, to fuel me, as you say.
On another note, looks like this will be tested already today - just found out my dad is back in ICU and sedated. I've been using alcohol as the crutch to deal with this, and pretty much everything else. One day at a time...
I'm truly sorry to hear that your Father isn't doing well. I understand how hard that is.
Let me ask you this though....
Is coping with his illness with alcohol, something that he would want you to do ???
