My answer would be that I occasionally need a good swift kick in the butt. I don't have any discipline, as should be evidenced by what I said above. And by my continuing dependence on alcohol.
I do want that help. I want the hand UP, not the hand OUT. I'm tired of needing others to motivate me.
It's funny that you mention anger - your perceptiveness truly amazes me, Mach. I'm really REALLY mad at myself right now. I'm also trying to hold on to that anger, because I deserve it, to fuel me, as you say.
On another note, looks like this will be tested already today - just found out my dad is back in ICU and sedated. I've been using alcohol as the crutch to deal with this, and pretty much everything else. One day at a time...
Me: 31 W: 28 M: almost 6 T: 10.5 S2 Bomb#1: 05/11 Bomb#2: 11/11 S'd: 11/28/11 Moved back in: 12/28/11 MC: 06/28/12
