What made yesterday difficult is that many at work asked me several times what W had planeed for me. Most don't know my sitch so I was vague or just walked away. But I survived.
The last couple of days I have been struggling internally. My controlling side has been kicking my ass. I have learned through this that I do not like people telling me what to do or controlling me. Since my W is in total control over the D, and court date is very near, well you can imagine. I am really trying to let go but it is not easy. I am not acting or feeling angry, the opposite, feeling some depression.
Irrational thoughts have also been revolving in my head. I know they are irrational. I know life without W will be fine and maybe even great. But I am not there yet. At least I had a great morning with D. Made her breakfast and drove her to school. She took a pic of her snake, the thing is getting huge.
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
