I think seeing your IC is good. The new interactions are bound to bring up emotions both new and old.
IMO - it's time to go back to DBing 101. Follow the 37 rules.
As for sticking up for yourself.. well lord knows I struggle with that myself.
I think you could have gotten the point across without getting so angry. What's the line that 25 uses.....
.... I didn't realize I was being x, but I'm sorry you feel that way.
Don't be a doormat by any means, but I do think you will have / are having some fresh anger/hurt/confusion come to the surface. Feel the emotions, deal with them... just because not to act with them.
Is your H still initiating all the texts?
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.