Can't anymore. So sad and scared. Really afraid.

[Yogoer]

Jack,

From one alcoholic to another, it's time to get back to meetings. I wandered away myself for awhile (years), and though i didn't drink, i found lots of other escapes. None of them worked. None filled that hole. A woman isn't going to either. You know that only God can, so quit running from it. Your problems won't go away if you stop drinking, but you'll at least have the dignity and courage to stand up and walk through them.

I mean no offense, but it sounds like you've got a case of the poor mes. Poor me, poor me, pour me another drink. That's not going to help.

If you want to keep livingin pain, keep doing what you're doing. Looks like it's working for that.

If you want to get throughthis pain, put down the drink and get to a meet. Stand up and live, man. I'm sending you my phone number. CALL ME. We can get through this.

And just so you know, my wife left me and i'm living on my mom's couch too. Sure, i'm ten years younger, but it's not any different. But i don't feel like a loser. I don't feel bad about it all. Life took a bad turn and it's what i've gotta do for now. Didn't ask for it and dodn't want it, but i'm darned sure not going to let it kill me.

What you're doing now WILL kill you. Spiritually, and if you stay out long enough, physically too.

Pick up the phone and call me. Night or day. Don't question it - do it.

The only difference between you and me is that i'm not drinking and i'm going to meetings. I need them more than ever with all of this going on. Looks like you do too, brother. It's a terrible, heartless disease. But it can be treated and you know. Take responsibility for it and let's work on this together. You know AA will ALWAYS be there for you, but YOU have to reach out.