While driving at work today to and from a client's house (it was a long drive) I had a chance to think long and hard about my role in my M with W. I realized that my expectations of W were too high for her. I expected her to change after we had our daughter as she seemed to have changed during the pregnancy.
I focused more on MY reactions to being disappointed by her not meeting my expectations and realized that I could have done better.
On the trip, I stopped at a gas station and found a great book called "Living successfully with screw up people" and it is really good so far! It actually helps you to look at YOUR actions to their behavior and focuses on the changes that YOU have to make in the relationships. I highly recommend it to people as it has been very helpful to me so far.
I consider this a sign from God for me to read as I have been praying to keep my eyes and ears open for me to lead me to what I need to do to make me a better person.
I am currently considering starting a new thread exclusively dedicated to me journaling every day and if people want to comment, they are welcome. I am would be doing it for me to look past and learn my progress, but if even one person could learn from it it would be a HUGE bonus.
M:35 W:33 M: 5 yrs. Daughter: 2 yr .7/11/10 D Final: 8/7/12
