So....I thought I've been good. She called me up last week to ask me to fix her computer. I went over there to pick it up and we made love. The next day we went to see a movie. Things seemed great. Saturday night she called me up at 2AM asking me to come pick her up 1/2 hour away. She was drunk in a bar. Went out to a birthday party for a friend of hers.
I was 1/2 way there and went home. Was angry. Told her next morning to never call me again. Never write and never text. I am done. She sent me one text, "I love you. Please don't leave!!" i didn't respond.
Been monitoring her phone calls, facebook and email. I have the passwords. She has added some guy named Joe to her phone book in gmail and talks to him a lot. 45 minutes tonight.
I am drunk and it is over. I am done. goodbuy. Like anyone cares. I am 40. Living in my parents house. unempoyed. And the only person I want to be with is spending a lot of time on the phone with someone named Joe. I paid to find out who he is. From his phone number i know his full name and address. I wonder how'd he like his ass being kicked.
and here I was the last two days fixing her computer like an idiot. I am the lowest I have ever been. I don't deserve to live
