Just journaling I have to. I set myself off on an emotional roller coaster by snooping today. I have no idea why I did it, maybe because things are going too good. No suspicious behavior or changes in mood or anything else that makes any sense. Now, I feel guilty, stupid and a little disappointed in myself. I made myself relive a nightmare for no apparent reason. I know that this is supposed to take time, but I'm just feeling crazy because I don't know if I can ever trust him, no matter what he does.
He's been an open book consistently for the last few months, but it's like I want to find something amiss. Completely ruined my workday and felt anxious for hours on end for absolutely no reason. At least I feel a little better now after venting.
