Indecision and the affair continues (Part 2)

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Oh, I didn't mean to imply I have any regrets...I don't think there's ever a perfect way to handle finding out your H has had an affair...but luckily I found great books and this website early in the process.

I think if I hadn't had the holidays in the mix, I would have pushed H quicker to make a decision and probably saved myself a month or two of this "indecision stuff". But, not a big deal.

H left again last night to go to OW's city. He gave me a backrub before he left and tried to say some nice things. He said he still loves me. I said he doesn't seem happy and he agreed. But, I also reminded him that this was all his choice.

He's screwed up...and I'm actually not sure at this point if I want to work on our marriage. Actually, I know I don't unless I see a major change from him. He's actually not a bad person, but he's too selfish right now for me to deal with him.

I am definitely pretty detached. Having had good friends and meeting a guy with a strong character definitely help.