Journaling... Spent the day with my dogs - my best friends in NY. I miss them a lot, but don't really like being in the old apartment. Thank God it was nice out. Had to communicate to stbx about some $ she owes for expenses, but did it by closed ended note that didn't allow for a verbal/text response. More of a - here are the expenses, here is your share, here are receipts, just leave me a check.
She had asked me to text her every day about when i see & feed t he dogs. I was for awhile, but let her know that i would no longer be doing that - i am there the same time everyday, don't see the need. Feel like she's just trying to keep me in steady contact. Cake and eat it too. No longer. Going dark does not feel scary anymore. Fb has informed me that she is now contacting old boyfriends - can't say i like it, but can say for sure it didn't hurt as much as i thought it would. Working HARD to detach. Didn't mention it or even give her any clue i noticed and don't plan to. Not my bizness - my business is making me a better person.
Glad to have a solution to the problem of me. Convinced more and more each day that DB will save me. I am so thankful to have stumbled upon it. Hard to think i was such a self-pitying, groveling mess just a few weeks ago. Hope i didn't just jinx myself
Me: H 30 W 29 Married: 2/9/08 Separated: 1/2/12 - she initiated, i moved out ILYBINILWY: Fall of 2011
Crushing truths perish from being acknowledged. - A. Camus
