I see now where things I say appear negative. Even when I mean to sound exactly opposite. She tells me sometimes that it sounds like it's all about me. I'm a work in progress for sure, and I'm learning to step back and see these things. The most important thing to me right now is holding on to my marriage and proving to my wife that I love her with all my heart and that I will never hurt her again, that she doesn't have to be afraid and that I'm committed to making her happy again. I called someone on this forum today and will be talking to a coach Thursday. It was explained to me that even though I think our communication is very limited and that makes it seem like I will never be able to prove anything to her, I actually have more contact with her than a lot of people do with their spouses in my situation. I'm learning every day. So I am stepping back and giving her more space and I will wait for her. When she calls I will just be pleasant and listen to her and not introduce any ideas about anything pertaining to our situation. I'm hoping that's the right thing to do for right now. It's hard not to panic and feel like the clock is ticking, but I haven't been patient like I thought I was. This forum has been a bigger help than you all know for me.
M-36. W-27 S-2 W moved out, filed for D after my A. I'm DBing the best I can! Learning every day, praying and hoping.
