Well today I may have started to hit that "reboot" button.
Last night, as every night, I prayed to God to speak for his servant is listening. I asked God to open my heart, eyes, mind, and soul to Him and for him to guide me to what I need to do to heal, forgive, and learn more about myself.
Today at work we had a speaker who does Mindfulness Therapy. We did a mindfulness exercise and I relaxed so much, but also felt the feelings that I had been bottling up for so long. It was a good thing. Then I learnt that she has a mindfulness class at the university that is free on Mondays! That is one of my nights that I don't have D, so I will be there and will meet new people!
The mindfulness will help me with my listening skills, anxiety, and focusing on the present and not the future.
Then after work as I was driving to pick up D from daycare I saw a sign for Planet Fitness that was offering membership for only $10 a month! I stopped in and got a tour. The place looked awesome and at such a cheap price with no contract deadline I can quit if it gets to the point I can't afford it. Plus the free T-shirt was nice.
The Big guy/gal works in mysterious ways!
I plan on starting to work out tomorrow!
M:35 W:33 M: 5 yrs. Daughter: 2 yr .7/11/10 D Final: 8/7/12
