Wanted to share something H said tonight that I haven't heard in a few months: "I'm sorry". Simple words. It was not about our R or M at all, but it was still strange to hear it.
H asked me this morning what we were having for dinner. He then emailed me at work asking if we could have another dish instead (we usually have a menu planned for the week, but do swap it around). So I cooked what he wanted and S4 and I ate by ourselves because H was late. At some point H called to say that he was on his way home. Apparently, he had gone to a store after work. When he got home he actually said "I'm sorry" and that it took longer than he thought it would. He kinda mumbled when he said it. I'm just shocked to hear him say those words. He hasn't been telling me what time he'd come home or where he goes. I haven't been asking him either.
I also got to see a few minutes of the "old" H. S4 and I were building a train track on the floor and he actually sat down and helped out.
More examples of how S4 is affected by H's recent actions:
S4: Why does daddy have to be mad at us all the time? M: What do you mean? S4: Why does he yell at me all the time? M: Sometimes you don't listen and it makes daddy unhappy. S4: Why does he have to yell at you? M: Sometimes daddy is not happy with me either. S4: Well, I'm angry at daddy because he doesn't hug you. And he yells at me even if I'm good.
I don't think H heard S4 say those things. It makes me sad. All I can do is assure S4 that we both love him.
