That helps. A LOT. It really helps me sort things out. I guess my question to you (or anyone) would be how does this differ any from the stage I just left?
I don't know how to show interest or a desire to reconcile and balance it with staying a safe distance back. I think the answer for now is just to do nothing and wait for her. I feel a lot like she is peeling back some. It's hard to grasp because in the last MC session she talked about me never saying I missed her. Now when I show some of those emotions - it seems to backfire or something.
I asked her about the concert yesterday via text and she never responded. I will take that to mean that the enthusiasm she had previously has dropped off. When I brought it up via e-mail at worked she seemed a lot more interested. I won't bring it up again if she doesn't.
How do I convey to her that I am not solely looking for MY best interests? That I genuinely want ALL THREE OF US to be together and happy? Every time I leave her place with him he cries for his mama half the drive home. It makes me almost cry.
I realize that I have to focus back in on my changes, detaching and GAL. I was just hopeful that at this stage she would have a bit part in that life along with my son. Academically, I know that I have made some progress. Emotionally, I don't feel like it at all. I am having those stupid occasional waves of sadness....rejection and fear. I don't want to have to go to court this month, I don't want to get divorced.
Regardless....I get the point. Just let her be and hope she comes to me. But I think it is very clear that if I come to her she will not react well.
