Waiting for the tides to change - 2

[BFloat]

Since getting home I have been sitting here watching D2 sleep. So beautiful. It's so nice and peaceful. Made small talk w/ H. Then he tells me that after my call w/ the kids last night D was upset because I wasn't there. I think to myself.. Good! Now maybe you'll see what it's like and how it's affecting them! Lol. I can hope can't I?

Have been thinking about valentine's.. Not sure if I mentioned before.. But I can honestly say that I haven't felt this good about valentine's in a looooong time. Every year I try to think of something nice to do for H and always have these hopes that he will do something grand and romantic. But this year.. I don't expect anything! And so I know i won't be disappointed. It's really calming actually. Instead, I'm going to get 2 little gifts for my babies to tell them I love them and that they are my special valentine's. Feels really good.

H just came to ask if I needed him to do anything before he went to bed. Smiled and said.. No. He kind of looked at me funny. Hahaha. Maybe he's wondering if i've been abducted by aliens.