I'm sorry this is so hard. I wish it would go away for you and us all. But the sad reality is we are all in the fight of our lives and I just don't want you to give up.
I've come to believe we are not only fighting for our marriages but for our own very hearts. You have a good heart and I pray you can keep fighting for yourself first and foremost.
It truly is the roller coaster and I'm right there riding it with you. I started my last post with a list of positives and now the past 2 days I'm just wanting out. And its been this way for 18 months. (sorry, not very encouraging is it).
But I'm still standing. I still have 2 great kids and I can still be the person I want to be. Some days the vision of who that is can be very clear and I can almost grab it. Then somehow its fades like vapor and I struggle to feel that strength again. But quitting, and giving in to the misery won't help you or your girls.
Your H is massive jerk and quite honestly so is my W. But that is their choices driving those behaviors. Not you or me.
Ok, I'll stop before I keep on rambling. I'm thinking of you and hope you have a much better week. Take care of you & those angels.
Ces - this is very inspirational for those of suffering the left behind existance.
