hope you love her, cause you're stuck with her now

[MichelleLT]

I never did reply. He came over late this afternoon. Packed up a bunch of his stuff, helped me get the futon set back up as a couch in the office, then asked if I wanted to go to dinner. I really was on the fence. We ended up going to sushi, he bought (he better have lol).

So nice it kept giving me deja vu. Had to keep reminding myself it wasn't a date.

Got back to the house (I drove since his car was full of stuff) and he asked if I wanted to talk. Again, on the fence. We ended up talking for a couple hours. The short version, he wasn't happy, he's still not happy, he doesn't know what he needs to be happy. But it's not fair to me to have to deal with that. He admits maybe the ADs have something to do with it, but he's still not sure it's enough. He's worried I'm suddenly going to decide I want kids, and since he won't have kids that's not fair to me. He's worried that things would never get better. He's mad that he had to break up with me to have all these conversations. Yet when I called BS and said he could have brought any of this up over the last six months before it got to the point where he decided he needed out, he said yes, but I had brought these issues up three or four times. He misses the dog, he misses me, but he needs his alone time. He needs time to work on his own stuff. Maybe he'll go back to school, maybe he'll try a different AD. Maybe we could try again when we're both in different places.

Just trying to put it all on paper before I start to forget details.

I'm too tired to really sort through all of this. I'm gonna try and get some sleep. We'll see if I can get my brain to shut up.