Thanks KML, I agree with this post WHOLEHEARTEDLY. I have clearer defined boundaries now that i ever have and know it will take a whole list of things/actions and commitments for me to open my heart and home to him again...and if he isn't willing to accept ALL of these things and do the work...then its a deal breaker.
I have made a promise to myself that i will stand by this for my own integrity , dignity and frankly sanity!