Where did my life go?

[irishblessings]

I honestly don't know what I would do without this site and the true kindness of others.

This week a friend of X and myself found himself in the newspaper charged with solicitation. My X sends an email to me that says "....there but for the grace of God" You see, he was pulled over for something similar and stopped right before he acted.

I didn't know what to say. So I said nothing.

He seems so sure of himself today. Like ridding himself of the marriage - even at the cost of the family - was what was needed in order to get himself to this "good" place. He sees nothing wrong with his PDA with new woman in front of the kids, friends, family. This is "him" without being stifled by me.

I have to figure out what my next steps will be. I want a better life.