Waiting for the tides to change - 2

[BFloat]

had fun last night. the girls wanted the night to continue by heading to a club downtown but i called it a night shortly after midnight. my mom wanted to go shopping in the morning so i decided to be a responsible adult and head home to bed shortly after midnight

went to see 16 candles on the big screen this evening. so much fun!! and can you believe that there were actually men in the theatre.. alone?? anyway, it was fun to remember the teen years. wouldn't it be nice if our problems were simply about a boy we were in love with? oh wait.. hmmmmm.. seems we have the same problem now as we did when we were 16!!! teen angst.

afterwards, my gf and i just hung around drinking coffee.. talking.. sitting idly by the window people watching as the evening passed. what i thought about is that it's really nice to have this time to myself.. what's not nice is the circumstances surrounding it.

a big moment for me these past 2 or 3 days.. i can actually picture my life w/out H. and i will be good.. and i will be happy. that's not saying it's what i want. of course not! but it takes 2 in a relationship. i'm willing to show up.. but not sure if H will ever get there.

a funny moment, i took a picture of myself and thought.. wow! D looks like me! D is beautiful!! so i've come to the conclusion that since D is beautiful and she looks like me.. i must be beautiful too! hahaha. if i say it enough times, it will be true. lol