I understand I feel the same. My wife walked out on me in October & last week she said she wants a dissolution. She said she wanted one before back in August. I have left that decision up to her she must do all the leg work. Im now at the LRT and just going dark it's a hard thing to do when you love someone with all your heart. We all make mistakes in life and ive made my fair share. Ive always been faithful though 11.5 years of our marriage and have made changes for the better and she still wants out which [censored] and there has been zero effort from her to even be willing to see if my changes are true. I can't understand why. Like you stated it feels like a really bad dream you can't wake up from. What happened to our spouses I guess some of us will never know but one thing I do know is GOD is good and things will work out for us at some point in life. Hang in their things will get better for us both. I wish you nothing but the very best and Im sure it will happen for you.
