Together since we were 15...Part 3

[Jenna333]

We did a lot of great talking today. We were both miserable with the control, trust, and codependency issues on both sides in the old R. I am excited to work on creating a wonderful relationship with trust, independence, respect, LOVE J is feeling the same way. We talked today about what he needs to change and what we both feel we need and want from ourselves and out of our new relationship. It was a very productive talk He told me he wants to become more responsible, more calm with the kids, trustworthy. From the relationship we both want pretty much the same things.

I'm still in shock that he's back. I actually burst into tears over it earlier today while I was cleaning. I truly opened my heart to him after that talk 2 days ago. He's had his heart opened to me since we decided to date each other exclusively. I explained to him today that I need reassurance from him that he won't be leaving, that he really wants this, and that he will work on himself. He is ready and actually very excited to embark on this path with me The trust is the hardest part. He doesn't fully trust me, either. I've done my share to break his trust in me. The fact that he agreed to counseling shows me that he's started changing I believe it will only get better from here!

Our mushy texts from earlier:

Me: "I feel so happy and full of promise and hope <3 I just wanted you to know that, sweetheart. I love you!"

J: "Aww baby, I feel the same way, and look forward to us growing together I love you too"

I sent him that because he also needs reassurance from me that this is what I want. He hasn't been convinced since I pretty much told him I couldn't do it a couple days ago. Time will help, as will space and loving communication and respect.