the biggest reason i want to go, to get myself back.
I feel this too and debate whether staying involved is healthy or if getting myself back together first and foremost is most important.
I've been separated for 5 months, and being in my own place frees my time for work and income/$ recovery, and self-care. Lately, however, I've slipped, spendinng time yearning and bemoaning her absence instead of pouring time/energy on me. Now I get it (and am hearing from my real-life friends to get going on self-development/self-care again.