Well last night ended up ok. I got worst so ended up lounging on the couch. H was attentive and helpful. Watched some TV and went to bed. H initiated some intimate contact this morning, but still no ML.
I had an extreme episode of dizziness this afternoon. Ended up sprawled on my living room floor. Scared H to death as he was on his way out to grab us some food. He helped me get myself together and has been attentive all day.
I did backslide and ask him if his mistress knew he was taking care of me. He repeated "Taking care of you?" I said taking care of me today? He just looked at me and didn't say anything.
I've been so good about no initiating R talk. Its been building up and I had to let some of it out. I feel like such an idiot at times for loving him when he's calling and texting someone else. Where did the man I married go? *sigh*
