i don't know... i suppose that it may show that...perhaps it shows that i'm just desperate not to be alone or that i'm incapable of taking care of myself...or that i've been duped by someone with Narcissistic Personality Disorder.
for me, at least, i still feel married, i still feel the love that i've always felt though, in truth, it's not being mirrored back in the least bit and so i think i'm kind of foolish and that she laughs about it with her friend.
all i can do is change myself and that's what i'll have to do. i can't believe that this is happening...it's still like some sort of horrible nightmare from which i just cannot awaken and, sometimes, in the dark, cold of the night, i just wish i had never been born.
