For now, find legal advice, and try to stop living in the land of "what ifs"...
^^^this is key right now. The "what if" needs to be replaced with "I am going to do this followed by this and etc..." Live your day with purpose - live the day for you not your W or the memory of your M. Easier said than done, right?
Me: 44 Bomb: 11/27/11 Divorced:6/12 Life goes on: 6/13