he can tell things are bothering me and that I am not happy. I am not so good at PMA when I have doubts and suspicions. Now I am having second thoughts. Is this really what I want.....having to push down my feelings to ensure that he feels great? Having to give up the ideal of honesty between us?
There is no talk of him helping financially either. I told him that I have spent all of my paycheck til a week and a half from now, and have no money. He gave me $20 for gas one day. I really don't want a joint bank account again with him right now. But he has to pay half of the living expenses here. His income is not just for his toys. He didn't even pay the bills of his that I mailed and took to his mom's during the 2 month separation, so now he has to pay those!!!!
I already need a vacation from marriage!
"Being at peace with yourself is a direct result of finding peace with God."
And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Phillipians 4:7
