Where did my life go?

[irishblessings]

Please tell me that almost 11 months after the divorce it is still "normal" to feel so disoriented - if not, then I am SCREWED!!!!

XH and OW show up to son's game last night wearing matching t-shirts with son's name on it. Opposing team fans coming up to see XH (he used to coach) and OW HANGING on him and acting like son's mother!!!!!!! I could not get out of there fast enough. As I was waiting for son to come out of locker room - typically XH walks OW outside then comes back in to see son. Not now - we have now moved to them standing right outside of locker room. So arrogant! Everyone looking at them like WTF???? He just doesn't get it. The kids have said - "Dad, just let brother get through the season - whenever you bring her into this scene it's humiliating!" But he feels this is HIS time. It's time for HIM to be happy and the rest of us just need to get used to it.

Personally, I am sick of walking into these events and having to feel so awkward. It just feels as though I keep failing at "moving on". I know at the end of the month the season will be over and that will help. But the next thing is oldest D's wedding. She wants to put his name only on the invite with "no guest" added. She's like "it's my day and it's only for a few hours - surely he can be away from her for that short amount of time."

I just want to feel better - to feel hopeful again. What is wrong with me?