Dragy, every time you feel yourself start to get those feelings, remind yourself of all the girls on this forum that would LOVE to be in the place you are.
You owe it to yourself to DB the best you possibly can, because you're getting the kind of chance some of us only DREAM about.
*HUGS* Hang in there, girl. You can DO this. Remember what being without your H was like. How you longed to have him sleeping beside you again.
Then ask yourself if a back-slide is worth having all that pain and anxiousness back again.
It's not. So do your best, because it's hard earned and you deserve this.
