Too Little, Too Late...part 5

[purgatory]

I'm getting more focused on myself and my trip and I finish packing and making playlists for the road. I've also downloaded a few audiobooks, including Laura Munsons' (the one that 25 posted about on barely floating's thread) so it should help to make the trip go by faster.

H did call...at 8:30. He said he had just gotten out of the gym. I don't believe him but it doesn't matter- because he has to live with the fact that it's so easy for him to lie to me.

He said: "So... I don't want to ask to many questions, but what do I need to know about your trip? I mean, if something happens...er, uh.... you don't have to tell me all the details."
{can you see the questions marks over my head??}
I told him where I'm going first and that I will end up at my parents house sometime mid-week. As far as the details in between- I don't have anything set in stone. {This was my attempt to satisfy his question, but keep somethings a mystery.}
H: "Ok, ummm. Any plans for Superbowl?"
{This is where I KNEW he had been talking to his brother!! I didn't want to lie, so I kept things light}: "Yeah, I've been talking to [BIL] about getting together to watch the game. He's got a soccer game that morning and then he's going to a co-worker's for the game. I think I'll go with him, I just don't want to impose on a stranger."
H: "Well, there will be a bunch of people there, like the house parties we used to have. Did he say who was having the party?"
{HOW would he know this- unless he's been talking with his brother about my plans?! Checking up on me already??} Or maybe his brother wanted to keep him in the loop so as not to appear that there's anything 'sketchy' going on.
FOR THE RECORD: BIL lived in the apartment below H & I in college, we have always been friends- even turing to each other for R advice. I've NEVER been attracted to BIL, I only wanted to hang out with some people my age to watch the game- sitting with my MIL on her couch with her boyfriend isn't my idea of fun. I asked H's 'permission' to call BIL about hanging out for the game- he said he was ok with it.
M: "No, he just said it was a co-worker."
H: long silence... "Oh, ok."
{H knows most of BIL co-workers from when they all hung out on New Years... it makes me wonder if there is a certain person that H doesn't want me around... interesting that he would care.} I really wonder if H will keep tabs on me through his brother....wonder????
We talked a little more about what time I'm leaving in the morning and if H is coming to stay here tonight. He said I could just knock on his door when I leave in the morning That kinda bums me out, but I'm hoping this is 'normal' WAS behavior- where they can't act like the care or even notice if we leave??


ok, off to bed so I can get up and leave before my boys get up.... I've already kissed them and put them to bed, I don't want to hear the crying in the morning if they see me leave. It may seem cowardly of me, but I don't want to start my trip in tears.

Good Night DB family, I'll check in with y'all tomorrow night (since trying to post while driving will be VERY difficult!)