Livnlearn,

It has been amazing to me the christians I know who have suggested in one way or another that we not reconcile. I hope your sister can understand, perhaps God can give it to her. But my family members who had to see me sobbing and take care of my kids for me a couple of times when I wasnt able are understandably hesitant about us reconciling too. It is because they love us, and don't want us to be hurt.

MIL I guess is controlling. She is very passive aggressive, married to an alcoholic, so I guess she had to develop her own coping mechanisms. It is very hard for H as he is very sensitive.

H works in computers, so even though I can delete the history, he can find out what he wants to. Besides, I can't hide things from him.
I do plan to continue to come here, but he wouldnt like being posted about, I am sure of that.
I know we will have problems and I will need support.
This bb has been a blessing to me and I thank God He showed it to me.
I am checking out marriage builders, it looks very helpful.


"Being at peace with yourself is a direct result of finding peace with God." And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Phillipians 4:7