Thanks Karen, I agree. Right now, I am reeling. I clocked 2-3 hrs sleep last night, mixed amid waves of stress and racing thoughts. I have forgotten how this feels - yuck! I'm without my main tool for stress management - running - so I have to improvise quickly.
I went out and bought copies of DB, as well as codependency books. I remember giving away my DB books to others 2 years ago - confident that I was "done" with them. I am a fool.
Yes, the self-work is next. I need to perk up and get that going strong.
Was out to dinner with a friend, but was pulled away to do a TV interview. Young attractive reporter interviewing me in my office (I returned to work) but I felt no real rise. But I reminded myself that it was good to go through the motion, as it probably is not what I'd do in the M - I'd have raced back home to be by her side. Before this marriage, I would have worked to enjoy the moment.
I guess part of the lesson is that I'm responsible for my own happiness. I can't expect that from another person.
Just S12 and I together this weekend. Have to be okay with being uncomfortable with this marital distress.
