What I see right now from you, is fear based. And it is such a F-ed up fear. Eventually, during a stand, the LBS goes through a fear of success. We fear being successful on our own, and we fear that we won't need our spouse in our life. We fear success because it moves us (from what we feel) is too far in a direction away from them.
And if we takes those steps, we are afraid that they will not be able to "catch up".
Wow, I've had these feelings and there is fear attached to them.
I thought it was just me. Thanks, Mach for making me look at this for what it is.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss