I say work on you. What are things that you didn't do because he didn't want to? Anything that you have been wanting to try? How do you want to improve yourself for YOU (because if it is for him, those things won't stick)? Move that little spot light off of him and point it on you for a while.
This isn't about him now...just you. As for the sex, well it has been 4 years for me. I needed and wanted to get my kids and myself through this before I even thought about dating. Me thinks it is time.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory