I find myself having trouble signing my own papers. It's a different sitch, but I too struggle with the fears you are facing.
In all honesty, we don't know how much or if our WAS thinks of us. My gut says that they do.
And we don't know if they will ever want to be part of our lives again.
Even if DB has transformed our lives and we truly become men and women that only a fool would leave, our spouses have their own journeys to take, the own inner changes to make..
.... and there is nothing we can do to help that process.
But IMHO - until that journey is made, no r can exist.
I believe 2step said it best, no matter what they do... our journey remains the same.
Begin your journey AC. Fill it with happiness and love, fill it with personal growth and excitement.
And leave the M in God's hands.
((( )))
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
