Yesterday H emailed me and we IM'd, he ended up coming over (first time in 2 months), He is so sorry about leaving, he loves me, he will never leave again....
Neither of us has broached the subject of when he will move back. I think we both want to take some time to see that things will not be the same as they were before. But he made it clear that for the next 3 weekends he is busy with his son and the 3rd weekend, going somewhere with his cousin. So it certainly makes me feel low on his priority list. And there are a lot of doubts on my side as to how he is going to be towards my kids, which was a problem in the past, and so many issues, I don't know where to start.
God answered my prayers, and sooner than I thought, but now the worry sets in.... I think we should spend some time dating and getting to know one another alone, not with the kids. I'll just have to wait and see if that is a priority for him. And obviously need to create some mystery, as he said that he knew I would be happy for him to come back, when he should have been sweating it. I had not spoken of R since about Nov 14. I clearly havn't shown that I am moving on and pursuing my own interests.
but he asked for his wedding ring and put mine back on my finger. I shouldn't be complaining, but I just have worries. I guess that indicates a greater need for faith in God.
I know this is where the real work begins, and I fear he thinks it will be easy.
"Being at peace with yourself is a direct result of finding peace with God."
And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Phillipians 4:7
